Why yes, I do like yaoi couples!

I saw a bunch of Bleach episodes last night, so my Bleach-loving self has come back to life.

And with it, my obsession with Yaoi couples.

But there is a slight difference, I guess. I have new couples in mind. Last time, I liked Renji + Ichigo, Renji + Byakuya and I can't remember what else.

But this time, I started off with a Gin + Izuru obsession. I am not sure why; I think it has to do with an episode I saw...Aww.


Yay! I love how Izuru is all submissive, quiet and has this air of innocence and Gin is all secretive, possesive, powerful and evil! You can clearly tell who's seme and who's uke here! They complement each other in a weird but cutely attractive way.

Renji and Shuuhei are both rather violent and seem like tough guys with a hard shell (although you can see him melt when with Rukia sometimes...), but I imagine that if they got together or something they would be totally sweet with each other. How nice. Or maybe they have the rough stuff going on! Either way, aww. And this doesn't mean that RukiRen or RenIchi are out of the picture!


That's it for now. Maybe I shall post more later...Who knows.

A quick note...

Every day that goes by it gets worse, it burns more.

Every night that we talk and he leaves without mentioning that he still loves me, I die a little inside.

I've been dying too much lately.

But I rather endure the pain and wait for him to come back to me than lose him forever.

I want Chinese food, damnit.

I have been craving Chinese food for about 3 weeks. I KID YOU NOT.

And I think I have no homework. But I'm so scared of not having any that I'll finish both my math and geography classworks. And then I'll probably read. This is sooo fucked up.

So yeah, the other day someone said "Luli's an atheist" and, impulsively, I said (a little too loudly) "Yeah!". This was followed by an awkward silence, but nobody came forth with any negative remarks about my lack of faith. I was pretty happy about that. And if anyone decides to come at me with crap about my political views, I'm ready to defend myself. Although I don't think anyone cares enough to bring it up more than my cousin's boyfriend did when he said libertarian socialism is the same as anarchy and then recommended me a movie. He's a funny dude, so I know there was no harm intended there.

Plus, I found this in his profile pictures:

Thus making him automatically awesome. 'Nuff said.

In other news, my life still sucks when it comes to love. I can't give up on ze ex, neither do I want to. Despite him being more quiet than usual and appearing a little lifeless in our (somewhat awkward) conversations, I can't stop thinking how much I love him. I would, indeed, sell my soul to go back to the way we used to be, but I guess no can do. I am hoping this is a matter of time, and I have gravely considered throwing some Canadian universities' info into his house through the living room window or something and then making a dash for it, but I think I'd get thrown into the loony bin for sure. Plus I'd have to get there in a car anyway. Duh. Altogether, there are too many factors that make my fantasy a very far-fetched thing. I still manage to get some things (Vancouver Film School, for one) into the conversation every now and then.

As for me, I made it quite clear to the counselor that I am not interested in going to college in the United States. Now I only have to get my parents to understand that. My mom has a hard time dealing with it; I've been saying I want to go to Canada for over a year and she still makes appointments with people who deal with scholarships for the U.S. and whatnot. What the hell, mom. Seriously. I believe nobody around here has any faith in my abilities to get into a Canadian university with a scholarship. Well, I hope I have those abilities, at least. Otherwise, yeah, I'm pretty much screwed. Well, nothing beats my mom's suggestion about applying to a university in Japan just because there are scholarship opportunities. And Prince Edward (in Canada) is off the list because a) the environmental science page looks suspicious and unprofessional and b) as le ex informed, "prince edward" is another name for a dick piercing. Huh. There's something I didn't know.

Well, looks like I'm not having dinner. Chinese food or bust! I guess I get the bust because no one here is willing to contribute to my cause.

Oh! And I finally updated Billy Buttonhead. I feel like someone has poured bleach into my creative brain part. I blame school for that! Damn you, IB!

Alas, I must return to my school chores. Sigh/grunt.

Toodles.